Somethings can’t be taught
Life, as everyone knows, is a learning experience.
At 21, I just found out about another side of me, one that I did not think existed.
That curve ball puts things into a different perspective, suddenly predicaments aren’t so black and white.
In the past, I was tres harsh on others that did things I did not approve of. I questioned the idiocy that led them to their rash decisions. I’ve grown a lot since that 16 years old I used to be.
I understand now that it’s ok for people to be curious, we all are at the end of the day. That is how we have led our lives for decades, and that’s how I got my mac and iPod. So no more questioning from me.
Still, for certain situations…and I know I’m being so broad, bare with me… I never understood why people would put themselves in those situations. I never understood how someone could do drugs, get a friend addicted to something bad, watch porn while babysitting, have sex with a friend’s boyfriend, steal knowing it’s wrong, etc. I am no saint, but I cannot judge. Not all of them can be sugarcoated but I think that’s life.
To be quite honest, I’d rather worry more about what I do and how it can affect me in the long run than waste my time judging someone else.
So how can I be ok with the above mentioned? Well, since we are curious beings, we are bound to end up making mistakes. I don’t think mistakes are always a regretful thing. I think I might have made a mistake. I don’t regret it. I’ve learned from it and am still curious to push the lines further.
Maybe this will eventually get me in trouble, that’s fine though. It came to me naturally, I see this as a learning experience. I’m not equating myself to doing drugs, haha, far from it..however, I am saying that I’m not that innocent. Not as innocent as I thought I was and there is nothing wrong as long as you have a clear mind about what you are doing.
I feel freed to an extent and I like what this small town boy has become. Accepting of mistakes, accepting of others, accepting about learning and that it isn’t always fair but that’s part of the journey.
